Edward

Edward, that is what Erik just said. Talking about Greece and things.
I totally got distracted by Erik.
Just found out I have a 4.0 GPA. Means I have a B- average. That is okayish... Wish it was better.
Um.. Yeah... RIGHT!
So, I went to Starbucks to study with Sharkie today.
And now I am in the common room with Erik and Sharkie.
Marisa and Texas visited for a while.
Sally did too.
Um. 11:11 wish...
Chillen.
Gave up study.
Yup.

Edward, I want to gather a few dancers and make a video/have a photo shoot. The photographer in me misses my old camera. I really want to have a photoshoot. Like holy shit. I might just have one with my crap camera. Like I am that desperate to get my creativity on film.
Also, I really... REALLY want to play drums right now. I miss feeling the beat in my entire body. Letting it flow from me out of me.
Music is making my creativity burst. I wish I could act on it... but I have class. I don't have a good camera... And I don't have drums. >_<
Frick...

Edward I am THAT friend for Sharkie. You don't even know how happy that makes me. Cause I am the first THAT friend. Like my Sauce is to me.
Today I studied too much. Watched the Superbowl. Saints won.
Um... Starbucks and the beach with Sally and Sharkie.
Building meeting.
More study.
Walk with Sharkie. I love her way too much.
Now Imma curl into a corner and cry. Psh... I can't cry... so imma continue to feel like dirt.

EDWARD! I am drunk/; I think. And I have bite marks all over my hands, cause I gkeep biting meyseldf. It feels good. Nto bakcspace its a furule. fuck you rule. we are not friends. I like vcorrecting my bad spelling. Omg. I spelled reallt y good. JSkSharkie don't laugh at me. It makes me sad zoezesdjf zorz. zros zorz that is how you speklll it.
I am a winner at life. And life is my bitch.
Dude, the troom is lslittly spinny.
Me and Sharkie are rdrinking. And I am not a lightwaeight. Bitch. bBITCHT!
Sharkies face is red. Like a coke./ bottle. not the fdrug you fducdudick fuck. you dick funk... fuck.... I want a bruise....
I gave up.
We are going outside... maybe... that is a bad idea. We will gret an irrrrrrrr. no, we are good. we keep our drink idndinside.
But they can sticll catch us for being drunk.
CAuse they can see us walk silly
I do.
I dtalk in my old russian accent......
mother howhore
i like that ho-whjoer
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ho-whore.
WIN!
I DID IT MOMMY! LOOK!
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WOMAN STUDIES!
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I am going to tell Conor I love him.
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Edward,
I love you.
Sharkie: I love you, |Alex.
Sharkie: I love you, Katie.
Sharkie: I love you, Conor.
Sorry
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That is because it is an abriviastion
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SAD!
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Smocsh is funny
like peanut butter on your balls
SUBMIT THIS BITCH!

Edward I bought my train ticket yesterday.
Today me and Jenny (Sharkie) like ran around. We went up and down and up and down on the same bus going from place to place. We had sushi. Best tempura banana in town I think. I am so full now. Doing studying now.
My and Sharkie are both studying in my room. Actually... I should tell you the Sharkie story before I study.
Okay. On the bus.
Me: Can I stick my fingers in the fish tank to see if the sharks om nom nom at my fingers?
Sharkie: No, we should stick Conor's fingers in there.
Me: Why?
Sharkie: He deserves to be eaten.
Me: LOL YEAH BY YOU!
teeheeheeheehee.
Oh note to future me... Kaylin contacted me last night.... Haven't talked to her since like grade 8. What ever happened to our friendship? Zenith? Her move? Chris... wait... she dumped him before we stopped being friends... Well, we will see if we get back in actual touch now.
Peace Edward, I really should study now.

Edward, today I found out why I need to touch people. It has nothing to do with connecting to them (well, once I know the person it does) but it has to do with my emotional stability I guess.
Basically, today, I was on the bus and I was sitting on a seat. (obvi...) and a guy comes onto the bus and needs a seat so he sits beside me. Now, I have no clue who he is or what type of person he is... so this is how I know I need contact. Buses are personal. You need to sit against the person next to you. It can't really be helped. The contact I had with this guys leg for the maybe 15 minutes completely calmed my mind. Every negative thought I had just seemed to flush into the abyss of the spinning bus wheel. My mind was happy. My mind was calm. This stranger, that I know nothing about, made everything I have been fretting about leave my body.
I don't know what this is, maybe I was able to tap into his positive energy or something. But I was free. (still am free) from everything. I feel really good right now.
So, this means I am going to be a human contact junky now.... Just saying...
Basically means me and Katie will have to get it on now. xDDDD kekekeke.
Urm *cough cough*
back on topic...
Maybe this is because I didn't get enough positive human contact when I was growing up? Or maybe I can truely connect to the persons positive energy.
I loved the feeling that washed over me though.
Thank you random guy on the bus. You enlightened me to an aspect of my life I never really understood.
Here's to becoming a contact junky! :D

Edward, worry is setting in.
I think I fucked up royally like I normally do.
I tried to push Katie away last night due to my stupid personality. My mind taking things too personally. I feel sick. I don't know what I can do. We need to have a talk, but I think I am at risk of her taking what I have to say the wrong way. I don't want to hurt her causing my lose of her.
Please Edward, give me strength so I can talk to her today.

Edward! EDWARD!
I JUST HAD A 20 MINUTE TIME FRAME OF COMPLETE BLISS MY PERFECT HAPPINESS! TRUE HAPPINESS!
OMG OMG!
AND I DIDN'T NEED LOVE TO HAVE IT!
I hope that happens more often.
Maybe that means I love myself. :DDDD!!!
OMG OMG!
Hyping myself back up!
THE ANSWER TO MY HAPPINESS! I FINALLY LOVE MYSELF!
(I still want love... )
BUT OMG! WIN WIN WIN WIN WIN!
YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW MUCH I JUST WON AT FUCKING LIFE!
FUCK YES!!!!
OMG!
Like adskjgvhp8reahfnseakljfhwalifjnewf
HOLY SHIT! That was just the sound of me swelling with happiness. Like I have no real words to describe this. I am just like overwhelmingly happy and I don't know how to handle it.
I just want to scream and make a lot of noise and jump around.
I FUCKING WIN AT LIFE!!!!!!

I keep updating today Edward. Tell me to shut up if you get annoyed. xD

So this one is more on music.
Music is just speaking to me today.
Only class has happened really. Had a talk with Steven. And he tried to give me advise on the whole Sean ordeal. I think I am currently impressed with that kid. xD Like my temporary respect for Gavin which he has yet to ruin. xD

Anyway, the musics...

‘A long night spent with your most obvious weaknesses
You start shaking at the thought
You are everything I want
'Cause you are everything I'm not’
Taking Back Sunday -Make Damn Sure
There are so many things I can say about this song. Could be about a night we spend. Me wanting Sean. His weakness, Katie. I could keep going, but I will let the other thoughts I am having marinate in your mind. But those lyrics really spoke to me today.

Next one... Radiate by Puddle of Mudd... Emo tears inserted here.
'It's the saddest sight, how you are tonight
I'm pushing through just to make you melt away
Are you all alone? Is someone home?
Is there nothing left for us to take?
Cause if you believe, we can surely find a way
What more can I say?

Does it radiate?
Does it break your heart in two?
Does it take you down when you don't know where you're running to?
Does it save your faith?
Does it ever go that far?
What else is it for?'
Most of those are questions running through my head. It makes me think of how sad it must be for Sean to still want Katie. It makes me think of how I want him. Many things are coming up with this song.

'Don't you know by now,
You can't turn back
Because this road is all you'll ever have.'
Fences - Paramore
This one makes me sad. Because I don't want to think that I only have one road to travel in life. I would like to think that I have more choices. Also, I am hoping Sean has more roads then the one he is currently going down.... And Katie is going places, so I know it's not true with her at all. Katie will triumph and beat all the forces in her way. She will definitly get to pick her path in life.

'I wonder why i even try
so tired of the fight
Whats the point when we know
You'll never change
We'll never see eye to eye

Im telling you to meet me half way
Youre telling me to stay away
Youre telling me that we should just be friends'
I wish I never met you - State of Shock
Basically emo tears. Makes me think of the past with Steven (a little) and what is now happening with Sean. It also made me think of the friendship between Katie and Sean. I am hoping he can change to who he really wants to be.

Last song for this post... is... and old song Mera used to sing to me... to make fun of me... and now... it... can be changed... Lets not make fun of my speech impediment now...
'So kiss me again
Cause only you can stop this stut-stut-stut-stuttering'
Stuttering - Ben's Brother
Basically if you know me and what is happening with Sean.... you get my drift.....

So, maybe I should continue listening to music today. It might point me in the right direction. I mean it has told me so much today. It like REALLY seems to be sticking in my head and really SPEAKING to me today.

Edward, not the tv program... but my mind... I think what I feel is lost.

Edward the images Colorado Sunrise is putting in my heads are adding to my state of... whatever I feel right now.
I am not quite sure what I am feeling. It feels like confusion, but heart break. But my heart doesn't feel completely broken. Feels more like it expects to become broken. Like it is bracing itself for the worst. But my mind is confused. My mind is wandering. I don't feel sad, but I don't feel happy. I feel kind of just there.
Maybe I should take this song off of repeat. But I am hoping if I keep listening to it it will tell me whatever it is trying to tell me.
I see old looking film with a girl crying. It jitters away and turns into a sunset with a coulple. They fall away and I see Sean dancing. But I don't think it's really Sean, cause it looks like Ed. I see me on a sidewalk crying with a ripped dress. I see a train crashing and that for some reason makes me feel releived. And it goes back to the Sean but probably Ed dancing. The opening scene of the film and the girl really disturb me because she seems truely broken. Well, the real opening I see is Jenny playing guitar. Then it turns to the broken girl. She looks like a mixture between me, Katie, and Jenny. This worries me. She takes a few seconds to look like the main character of Kanon, which is also worrying me.
What is this song trying to tell me? I know I am worried about Jenny and Katie right now. Am I supposed to be worried about me too? And what am I supposed to make of the Sean/Ed thing. I was in love with Ed. Sean is... a crush... not love. And I don't think I will give myself the chance to fall that hard. Unless my heart is trying to tell me to. But I really don't want to because then I will get hurt. But Ed dancing was one of my favorite things ever. Made me who I am really. Does that mean something with Sean or his dancing will make me who I am supposed to be?
I guess I should go back to my reading before class... but I can't concentrate...
Peace Edward xoxo (hope your mind is in a better state)

Edward, yesterday things that happened were class, study, sad Jenny, Alex just being there (no real feelings), Alex's run, aaaanndd.... yeah, that is OH!
The boys in geography made me feeling temp better. Basically I was the only girl in my group, so they kept trying to flirt and looking at me like I was cute. Sooooo... temp better about shitty things.
Also, I know Katie-love will read this. I don't lose friends, and don't try to lose friends. I try my best to stay friends with people who are best friends. I won't let her lose me, and I won't on purpose lose her. I love her too much. Plus I am buying my train ticket to Nanaimo on Friday so we have to stay friends. If I just spent about a week there and we were not friends that would be awkward. xD
I should start paying attention in class now. Will update again tonight Edward. :D <3<3<3

And Edward, these are my some of my favorite quotes ;

Post Your First Entry ; 2/3/09
‘So, like I found out I'm an Edward type of fangirl.’
The reason you have your name Edward. :D
On sex :‘Which is between a girl and a boy, or a boy and a boy, or a girl and a girl, or multiple people at once, or a man and a goat…’

Calling Authorities = FUN! ; 2/4/09
‘Now, Edward, I know you are thinking 'What teenager in their right mind likes to involve themselves with the cops?'
Well, you see, I do. Cause the CUTEST COP EVER came into my store. And I felt mega safer after he had come and left.’

Productivity ; 2/5/09
‘'Oh, I thought you were doing something productive'‘

I wish… ; 2/12/09
‘I was a super saiyen right here right now... then I could go fly get some food and OM NOM NOM it up in ten minutes before enlish. My stomach will growl in my class now... And I will get an embarassment.

=(

Edward... save me... super saiyen me some om nom nom food now!’

Bathing ; 2/18/09
‘AND I JUST HAD A BATH! FEEL CLEAN!

Lets hope I dont ruin this feeling when I...

JIZZ IN MY PANTS!’

FALCON PUNCH!!! ; 2/25/09
‘My friend and I were fighting over something. I think my glasses and I wipped out my hand and he let go at the same time so I falcon punched the table hard.’

=) ; 3/15/09
‘Wow, Big Comfy Couch is creepy...
This guy has long hair and he won't cut it. Lol’

Leopards; Copious Amounts ; 3/24/09
‘Leopard leopard leopard.
That was copious amounts of leopards.’

Eyebrows Much? ; 4/1/09
‘Edward... my sister shaved off her eyebrows.’
(that was the entire post…)

On April 6th, 9:56, 2006 ; 4/6/09
‘The dancefloor is my home.’
Best day of my life remembered.

One a Happening. ; 5/11/09
‘I said 'FML! My life is over.' Right then my mp3 finished loading and Rev Theory sang into my ear 'FAR FROM OVERRR!'‘
Music knows when I need it.'

GAH! ; 6/9/09
‘Edward, Other!Becca offends me. She won't do her work! BAD BAD!’
XDDD! Then entire post. Mood: Offended.

I deleted all the porn on the internet. ; 8/17/09
‘'But it's 18 plus!'
And I say
'Uhhh, we are 18'‘

Orgasms ; 8/24/09
‘We also set one of my subway shirts on fire!’

Weekend ; 9/14/09
‘And he apparently tried to get in her pants, but instead just took his penis out and jizzed on her and my bed. So I unknowingly slept in nasty jizz. Ew. :( ‘

Bored as Helllll ; 10/14/09
‘Note for future me... I gave Dayton a boner cause I am too big a tease... and like to flirt too much. Weird…’
Ew. I did? Gross. *shutter*


Hockey makes a fail Alex ; 10/17/09
‘I said 'Wow, the Canadian anthem sounds weird today.'
And Jenny is all 'Wow, Canadian fail. That is the American anthem'‘


When you can’t get the smell out ; 11/18/09
‘Its like a surgery of awesome.’
‘I want to ride a roller coaster because that would be sexy and sexy is always a two thumbs up type of situation.’
‘Its like when a butterfly glares you in the face. It feels pretty nice until you realize the butterfly is an asshole.’
(Some Wednesday activity quotes)

Death + Monster Reborn ; 11/23/09
Mood: Monster Reborn
‘Edward! I almost died today. But I used monster reborn, so no worries there.’
(over my 8 page lab getting lost and recovered)

Winter Formal ; 12/5/09
‘Okay, now seriously, bed time for this dancer.’
On dancing all night. What I do best. Legs sore = good night.

ES Exam ; 12/12/09
‘I need to stop falling asleep during exams!’

On Love; Wanting it and Having it ; 12/15/09
‘This morning I had to actually coax myself into the shower... Out loud. My floormates probably think I am crazy.’

Vancouver, I am in it ; 12/20/09
‘And like I noticed his PSYCHO ROCK HARD ABS! And touched them... then freaked out that he was shirtless. @_@’

Sherlock Sexy Mother Fucking Holmes ; 12/27/09
‘Who needs a Sean when you have a Sherlock Holmes?’

Hello, ; 1/6/10
‘Today is a very relative term. It entails everything that happened in the day you are currently situated in, or a part of it you think of everything that way.’
(A Wednesday post)

SHIT I ALMOST FORGOT A TITLE! ; 1/13/09
‘But, I wish I was an otter, I would be one cute mother fucker.’
‘Like on your cheek. Not the butt kind, but the facial kind.’
‘Makes me think of butterflies when they dance in and out of the windows and land on the girls skirt. NO! Not cool Mr. Butterfly. That is sexual harrassment and how you go to jail. I mean, she is obvi jail bait Mr. Butterfly. I can't beleive you would do that to yourself. What will your wife think? Your son? Mother fucker, we can not talk anymore Mr. Butterfly.’
(Wednesday)

Class, Class, Class, Interview, Doctors, Starbucks… ; 1/19/10
‘And I'm all 'Oooohhh... riiiiight, blood loss is bad.'‘

It’s Wednesday Part 1 ; 1/27/09
‘They are like fluffy blobs of fornicationness.’
‘Butterflies. I can't stop thinking about them. It is like they are flying in my brian. But they are supposed to fly in your stomach when you are nervous. I wish I could just squish that butterfly and yell in it's dead face 'Uh! Could you not?' And throw it at the ground when i step on it and laugh at it's now orphaned children. 'HA! Little orphans. HA! I have more money then you.'‘

It’s Wednesday Part 2
‘Dude, the eyelids are like the assholes of the face. They just can't deal. They just always want to close.’

It’s Wednesday Part 3
‘NOTE! Those that don't like aggresive sexual frustration should not read this message.’
‘Like a sheep herder. Omg, he just wants bacon. He realy want a shower this afternoon. After his morning afternoon bacon nap.’
‘Dude, would a gay guy bedazzle his cock?’
‘And they would make piano love. Like TWING! TWANG! TWING CHUNK! That is the sound of piano keys fucking.’

These are some of the best moments I have written over the year of love, pain, suffering, lose, moving out, growing, and becoming who I am now. I hope to have another great year revealing my life to you Edward.
Thanks for sticking with me.
xoxo
Here’s hoping for another wonderful year of amusing quotes coming from the deep crevasses of my mind.
Also, I miss my Unicorn girlfriend

Edward, will you be my hero, be the one who will save me. Mera makes me cry tears of joy because she knows my need a hero symbol. All the meaning behind my starfish. When did I start that? When I was a little dolt. The version of myself when life got hard. Did it ever actually stop being hard? No, not really. Life is still hard. But it is a little easier because some of the stresses are so far gone that I don't have to think of them anymore. But where is my life really going? I am at Uvic getting a degree in geography... so I am just going into a life of work? Cause that isn't all I want in life. But then again, I don't really have any special talents. Not like I can go anywhere with my terrible guitar playing. I can't sing. I am not all that athletic anymore. I can't even play video games well. I have no talent. I am just a loser going into a job for my entire life.
What should I do Edward? Do I shine my starfish symbol? But where does that get me? Mera comes to the rescue, but she is so busy with life lately I barely talk to her. I am so glad she could talk last night when I needed her advise. Good thing Dayton did that crappy shit in the past or I wouldn't have thought of going to Mera. I wouldn't have found out she knows my starfish symbol. I wouldn't have gotten that temporary happiness. Jenny wouldn't have seen me cry. Jenny wouldn't know how much I care for her.
I liked talking about her boy issues becaues it made me forget my starfish dream for a few minutes. I don't know if she understands how much I loved Ed and how much I doubt she is into him like that yet. If she is I am incredibly jealous and hope he says yes. But maybe I should take back that dare because she doesn't need the broken heart of him saying no. But then she would get the answer instead of wondering her whole life if he wanted her. I am so glad I got rejected from Ed. Otherwise I might have wasted my whole life wanting him.
So when I turned on my mp3 this morning it desided to be cruel and the first thing it played was 'Love Hurts' by Incubus. Thanks Lukas... I already know that...
Also, I think the song 'Life' by Our Lady Peace kind of represents many lives I am currently attached to. Maybe they should all listen to it for inpiration. But that song didn't help me. It just brought me farther into my spiralling abyss. I am confused and still don't know what to do with life.
I am truely... TRUELY happy when I am in love. Right now there is no one for me to fall in love with so what am I to do with my life? Am I wasting it away because there is no one? If I don't find love will I find my true happiness?
I mean, I love to travel. I do want a job in geography. But, what is all that if I don't find love. Find someone to share everything with.
Don't get me wrong Edward, I have my besties to share things with... but I want that love to share things and get love back on that level of love.
I don't know where to find love and why I keep going after people who will never love me.
I can go back to Steven. Then he can love me. And I am giving someone my best happiness.
I mean, everyone elses happiness comes before mine. Always. No matter what is happening. So, maybe I should just suck it up and let him be happy for ever. Then I can just drift along until I die.
Oh shit! Am I just drifting along? Cause I am not going for anything that will bring my true happiness. Am I just torturing myself to death?
Edward, can you enlighten me on how to find love?
I really want to be able to tell someone I love them no matter how much it breaks my heart. I want to give someone the ultimate happiness which is my love. My love brings others happiness right? Steven seemed pretty happy that I loved him. I think.
If I can't share my happiest feeling in the world where am I going?
Fuck, Edward. I am so sorry. You probably want me to shut my mouth and leave... Maybe I should.
You are a year old now. So maybe I should bring some happiness into this. I used to write interesting things. Longer posts. And good quotes. I should go back and collect some of those cute/awesome quotes for you. I think I will do that later today.
It's 11:11, what do I wish for Edward? I don't even know anymore. My wish will never come true... I know that for a fact now...
But I waste the wish on the same ol' thing as always.
Is it bad of me if I still want to kiss Sean? Is it bad of me that despite my heart which is shattering into one million pieces I still want to go after him even though I know there is no shot. Ever.
Is it bad of me if I still want the muskateers? Because that made me temporarily happy. The little happiness, the glimmer of hope toward my happiness. I guess that no longer brings the glimmer to my true happiness. But it brings me my other happiness. The temporary fill the void of no love happiness.
But don't get me wrong Edward. Just cause I have no one to love doesn't mean I am a super sad/depressed person when I don't have love. I just fill the void of no love with friends and happy memories. It is happiness. I promise.
I have grown up a lot in the last year. I no longer do the 'I am depressed, lets not eat.' or the ' I am depressed, I am going to just shut my mouth for the rest of my life' things. That is a good sign.
Is it bad that I still want to have lap dance time in the hot tub? Is it bad that I still want to go in the hot tub at all? Is it bad that I still want to give Sean that back rub? Is it bad if I am scared shitless to go to Nanaimo? Is it bad if I want Sean? Is it bad if I put all my energy into trying still?
I am kind of going after something pointless. Why?
Why do I intentionally hurt myself? I mean... I kinda do. No, I don't cut anymore Edward. Quit that a while ago. Haven't even tried in a total of about 6 months. (cause yes, that butter knife incident counts....)
I no longer intentionally hurt myself by not eating.
I just look to things that will break my heart. Cause this is one of those things that will.
I guess I won't have club activities today because I can't just try to hide my depressed feelings with temporary releif... Like why I didn't drink this weekend. I can't fall into habits like that.
(at least drinking is slightly better then cutting........ is it?)
Oh how I wish I was a starfish on a beach just sunbathing all day... with no care in the world.
I am jealous of that starfish. So happy.
I will continue to shine my distress signal into the sky until my hero comes to pick up the pieces and put me back together.

Edward, it is your one year birthday. I now get to laugh at myself cause I actually have kept this strong for a year. (with a slight hiatus in the middle. xD)
BUT ONE YEAR! Go me.
Anyway, I am in geography A. Bye.

Edward, I finally went to the ear doctor and I can hear again. And it really hurts my head. Like frick. Why does everyone have to be so loud?
So, I am feeling... a little bad. I guess it's bad. Basically, Jenny is nervous about asking Conor out because she thinks it will cause a friendship off between us. I would never friendship off over a boy though. It's hard to explain my emotions and how I think I guess. Cause my feelings for him do not matter in this equation. I want her to date him because it would make her happy and they would be super cute. I put my friends' happiness before mine and that is hard to explain to people. If something I do or think upsets a friend I will stop it or put it out of my head. (or try. I can't take my self hating thoughts completely away yet. That one is hard.) But I don't know how to explain this to her. I would never EVER friendship off her. I love her so much. And I really want them together. I hope she goes for it. And I hope I can explain this to her. My feelings for him don't matter, I can put those away so they can be happy with each other.
Also, note to me. I have to go back to the ENT in three weeks. He was all 'two weeks' and I was all 'FUCK NO!' xD
So in geography B now. Later Edward love.

Edward, I didn't go to Capture the Flag because not enough people really showed up and like I had my chest pains pretty bad. So it was totally worth it not going. I have chicken strips now. And I just remembered I have a stupid assignment. I have to start working on that bullshit now.

Edward, me, Jenny and Sally went to get tempura banana today. :D We got hungry so we like got food too. We found a little market square off of LoJo. So cute. :D Got excited.
Lol, and Jenny is freaking out over hockey now. xD
Love her.
We went shoe shopping too. I have flip flops for the summer. :D
That sounds about it.
I had a boring day.
So stoked. Capture the flag tonight. :D

Edward, I spilled...
So, there is still no internet connection at Uvic.
I can't update much at all.
Basically last night me, Jenny and Sally went to the Vikes hockey game. And I got so pass out tired that I almost passed out at the game.
It was a long day too. Like jeez. xD
Now me, Jenny and Sally are at Starbucks.
Doing work.
And shit.
Bye.
Oh, and tonight we are watching the Canucks game then going to the Vikes game. Jenny wants Conor to come. I hope he does too. :D

Edward, I have some things to tell you.
I had awesome hardcore fun with Sean and Katie. :D
But there are some things that came out of the night that confuse the fuck out of me...
Like Sean.
And Sean.
And Sean.
Dude, I can't wait to see Katie in two weeks. I can't wait to see Sean either... but I hope my head gets over some things first cause I know my heart won't.
Dude, but firsts. We will have crazy wicked times. :D
SO! They showed up while I was still in class. Me and Jenny ended up finding them. So happy that Jenny and Katie got along so well. We chilled in my room for a while. I play guitar, after some struggles of starting because I figured Sean would be judging me... @_@
But then while I was playing I got so into it that I didn't realize that Sean was playing with me. Omg... I almost died when I realized he was. That was quite the moment in my life. Not sure how to explain it without sounding like a dork.
When I had class Katie and Sean hung out with Jenny. Then Jenny left for reasons that you don't really need right now Edward. But she wasn't feeling all to well because of it. (lets just say boys are stupid...)
So, me, Katie, and Sean wandered around and took pictures. I finally bit Sean again. xDDD! But hard this time. xDD! So not sexy at all! Muahahaha!
We went past the soul eating gate and we all held hands and went through it. I got confused when later on Katie let go of my hand and Sean didn't. Like at all, he kinda held on tighter.
I like when he is in a flirty mood though, because I can be me without toning it down. I hate toning it down because of my fear of making it awkward.
(oh, so, Sean has already, for 'experimental' reasons only, agreed to make out with me in Katie's hot tub again... )
Later we were in the common room and Sean was having bubble issues. But then despite that ended up putting his leg against mine. Made me go crazy because he is showing all these signs of wanting me, but doesn't really want me. I now have different thoughts of that one moment though because Jenny told me that Sean said he would play footies with me just because girls think its flirting when guys do that.
Does that mean he is just doing all this to mess with my head? Does he intentionally want to hurt me? I am confused, but I am scared to ask him for fear of ruining my friendship with him...
Me and Katie felt a weird presence in the common room though. It was scary. @_@ It was really sad. Holy shit.
I didn't get to actually make out with Katie. Sad sad sad emo tears. xDDDD
Also, there was no rape. We didn't rape each other. xD
I am also extremely proud of her for putting up with my geography class while Sean 'slept' on my floor. (lol, sucker)
I am also glad that Katie learned about albedo because of that class. :D
I miss Katie already, but it is ONLY two weeks until I get to see her again. SO FUCKING STOKED!
So, me and Jenny are at Starbucks studying.. I should go back to that now... Jeez...
Well, Edward, you do need to know about my life.
Sorry, I didn't mean to talk a lot about Sean. I am just thinking of things and trying to sort out my brain... @_@
PUMPED for the firsts and the questions with Katie and Sean again in two weeks. SO PUMPED! (is it bad that I am excited for Katie's hot tub?)